Story Time: Senior Year Stresses, Struggles, and Sentiments

Hey everyone. It’s been a long time since I’ve sat down to really just chat with you all, and I know that I’ve been a bit flakey lately. I haven’t been responding to comments very quickly, I haven’t been looking at other people’s sites, I have barely been tweeting. I wish I could give a good excuse, but the best I can come up with is senior year. At this very second, I’m feeling pretty stressed out, so I figured it was a good time to pop over here and write a little “story time” post.

First, let’s start off with something positive. The senior project is done! I turned in my 84-page final project last week, and it feels so good. If you are wondering how I managed to keep posting on my site, well… I spent a lot of time prior to the last two-week crunch, writing a ton of posts and scheduling them to go up. That’s why they seemed a little lacking in terms of personal details, because I had no idea how I would be feeling when a post went live. I’m proud to say that I turned it in, and am pretty happy with how it turned out. I haven’t looked at it since my final read-through, though, and I don’t think I will until I get my grade… and even then, maybe not. I’m nervous. πŸ™‚ I do have some more senior-y things coming up though. I have my English exams that are going to be pretty intense. There was meant to be a meeting about it at noon today but it got rescheduled for 4:30, which is unfortunate, because I work then. Blerg. And, I’m working on my French final project. I’m only minoring in French, so thankfully I don’t have to write another 84-page work. I don’t think I could survive that. I’m actually in a good place with it, I think. I have a little more than a week until it is due and I only need a couple hundred more words, which seems like baby stuff compared to the huge project I churned out for my major.

Moving on from that, I have a lot of real world stuff to deal with it and I’m so stressed about it. The first is a job. I’m not going to go into details about it, but I *should* be able to get this job I am applying for. It’s at the place I interned last summer, but when I had the first phone interview, I realized the gravity of what I am doing. I am putting all of my eggs into this one basket, and what if something happens? I know it is unlikely, but what if….. I freaked out and started looking for other jobs to apply for, but it is surprisingly difficult to find something that I am qualified for and doesn’t require 5+ years of industry experience.

And then apartments. I have been working on this all day today and I am so done. My boyfriend and I have decided to move in together (yay!), so we’ve been looking for apartments together. But since he is older than me, and therefore graduated from college, he works all day. And that means I am handling all of the phone calls and emails. Which is fine. I really don’t mind handling this stuff. But, we’ve been trying to communicate through text during the day, and it is really hard. It’s so hard for him to know what I’m thinking and it’s hard for me to know what he’s thinking. And then he gets busy at work and can’t respond right away, or I have to go to lecture and then I can’t respond right away. So that is a small source of stress right there. However, right now, our major dilemma surrounds cats. Yes, cats. We have been talking about getting a cat longer than we have been talking about moving in together. And I’m not exaggerating about that! We have a list of names that we like and we have even debated getting more than one. It’s something that we are really serious about. We love cats, basically. πŸ™‚ However, the apartments that we are looking at and LOVE (big kitchen, in-unit washer/dryer, dishwasher, good location, affordable)… they don’t allow pets and there is no flexibility to that policy. So we are having this major dilemma. We have to decide whether we should move on the apartment that we love or if we should keep looking. To be honest, I’m a little scared to keep looking because I graduate so soon. But I really want a cat! Honestly, I would love to get some advice on this. If you’ve been in a similar situation, what did you do? Or, if you were in my situation, what would you do?

So basically… that’s what is happening in my life at the moment. Today I’m really feeling the stress, but on the whole, life is pretty good. πŸ™‚ I really can’t complain too much.

If you have any advice for me, let me know.

Look for more posts coming soon. Tomorrow I should be posting my April Birchbox post!! πŸ˜€

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